by Liz Nierzwicki
Years ago when I was praying and asking for God to finally give me my husband. I was told “No.” You know that voice right? The one that is unquestionable. The one that guides the way. Well that was the one. It came over my fervent requests with a calm and graceful “No. You need to love yourself.”
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What happened that day was the start a deep awakening to my way of living, my way of being, my way of relating to others. Clearly I was asking for love from the greatest Holy one of all – God. But God was saying “no” and that voice sprang up from within me loud and clear. The voice stopped my tears instantly due to my surprise of hearing something beyond myself. And by hearing I don’t mean it was audible. It was truly like God stopped doing whatever she was doing to give me this command as it and spoke from within. I was in awe.
And then my mind started up again… Where was I not loving myself? Maybe I need to go to church. Maybe I need to finally start meditating. Wait.. what? I thought this was the God of love? Aren’t we supposed to love each other? What does this truly mean for relational love? How deep can my love go for myself? How could I love myself more and it not lead to arrogance? Etc. Etc. These were all questions running through my mind in a yoctosecond (yes, that is even smaller than a nanosecond). And then the voice again… stopped all it was doing… and and said in a very direct and almost stern voice this time:
You need.. to love.. yourself !
With ALL of those dramatic pauses.
That was it…. The gauntlet was smacked down. The answer is “No Liz. You need to love yourself. And…by the way… I am you.”
Huh? One part of that made sense and the other part was a bit hazy.
I have heard that God is us. In Christianity it’s said God, Man, and The Holy Spirit are one. In the path of yoga is it said that “the kingdom of heaven is within you” and you can reach that state through the path of yoga that leads you from poses to breathing to concentration to meditation to… BLISS. Yoga in Sanskrit is ‘yuj’ which literally translates to “to unite.”
But man-oh-man if someone walks around saying: “I am God!” (like Kanye) they’re going to be hated and called a blasphemer.
So I committed to a year of no dating. I committed to truly diving deep into self-love to see what I was missing, where I could be better to myself and see what this voice meant when it said, “I am you.”
I was going on a journey of self-love and I was excited to get this started.
Now it’s five years later and I’ve learned so much. I’ve taught so much of this. I realized that there truly is no ending to the well of self-love and the more you do, the more you love and the closer you feel to others, life, and the Divine.
Unless you have had your own rockbottom moment or wake up call, much of this may not even make sense to you yet. It was really annoying to me when I would tell someone my moment with the Divine and they’d blow it off and say “Oh yeah, of course you need to love yourself. You can’t love another until you love yourself.”
And although that is true, I didn’t feel that they understand the depth of what this truly was.
This wasn’t about relational or intimate love in a partnership.
It was about understanding the depth of my own (our own) Divine nature which has nothing to do with an intimate relationship and everything to do with fully thriving on this planet as a whole entity, in-tune and aligned with the Divine.
This knowing and alignment surely will help an intimate relationship, but this spiritual moment had nothing to do with that. I knew this innately when this moment first happened. This was a soul thing.
I took my time diving deep into myself that year and did tons of reading, tons of yoga, tons of extra workshops in my yoga studio, more teaching of the path of yoga in my yoga school, more meditation, and tons of reflection. All of this kept leading me deeper and deeper into a place where I felt the Divine in me and through me. I started to have magical moments of insights that were life-changing – generational changing. I woke to patterns and they instantly evaporated. I heard from my the Holy Spirit and KNEW it was the Holy Spirit. I was in beautiful alignment and I was in love with this voice of truth.
It became the only relationship that I wanted more of – it was life-giving and what latter came to be know by me as alignment and soul truth’s.
One thing that did happen as a byproduct, and where those few were right, was when it came to others was this… Yes… when I was self-loving, I oozed love. I saw people with unconditional love. It was who they were as long as I was that within my own self.
And this morning as I was having my quiet-time, I came across some resonating truths as I was reading A Course in Miracles that inspired this blog post:
“The power of God will support every effort you make on behalf on His dear Son.”
As I read this, a lightbulb went off.
We’re always praying and asking God for this or that. A common one is when people ask God for wealth or to get them out of debt. But what hit me was that’s the wrong prayer request. God hates greed. God loves his children and wants is to love one another. Serve and help one another. Our prayer should be, “God show me who to bless today.” If you believe God’s provision for you, and you read that statement that God will support every effort YOU make on behalf of his dear Son – that is when you will be rewarded.
Then the course spoke to me in this:
“Would you be hostage to the ego or host to God? Let this question be asked you by the Holy Spirit every time you make a decision. For every decision you make does answer this, and invites sorrow or joy accordingly.”
“For God would give Himself through you.”
“Rather, join with me in His (plan), that we may release all those who would be bound, proclaiming together that the Son of God (you and me and everyone) is host to Him… “
“Call forth in everyone only the remembrance of God, and of the Heaven that is in him. For where you would have your brother be, there will you think you are. Hear not this appeal to hell and littleness, but only his call for Heaven and greatness. Forget not that his call is yours, and answer him with me. God’s power is forever on this side of His host, for it protects only the peace in which He dwells.”
The image of looking into someone’s eyes popped into my mind. And I told myself, as I look upon my brothers and sisters of the world, I must remember, they are the host to God – as am I.
As I serve this knowing, the power of God will support me. “The Kingdom of Heaven” in me, in them, who is host to God will support us.
This is now what I know to be what is meant when it is said: “The Kingdom of Heaven is Within.”
We are the HOST to God. With that knowing, we can remember how Holy we all are. We can choose to allow this flow and as we do, we will wake up to the one trying to live and love through us!
This message is SO BIG to me that I even recorded a podcast for my Heavenly Mind listeners. If you want to hear that too, click here and make sure to hit subscribe!
~Elizabeth (Liz) Nierzwicki
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